I am having a problem. A certain fellow, in my estimation, doesn't see me as a human being unless I force that perspective on him. He sees me as either a service or an inconvenience, depending on the circumstances. I can't handle that for much longer, and I think I probably need to talk to him about it. I have no idea how to do that.
Leaving that aside for the moment, I can now process Saturday. The big deal really was that I spent the night with someone I don't know all that well and am certainly not dating. While it was fun, I don't want to repeat it; I need more of an emotional connection.
Earlier on Saturday I went to a fun panel discussion and saw an awesome movie with Xandra, had lunch with Shula, and watched British comedy with Ron. Fantastic day. Not to mention Adam indicated that it's quite likely they'll be moving here next year. I think I'm a little too invested in that possibility.
Continuing backward through the weekend, I saw Rip and Pat on Friday. It was fun, and it was nice to feel able to converse and associate comfortably with people from my previous life on the east coast. It does feel in many ways like another life.
I think that's all I've got for the moment. I'm reading a new Robin McKinley book and it makes me happy.
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